;; i didnt want it to end this way

I read a note my Grandma wrote back in 1923
Grandpa kept it in his coat, and he showed it once to me
He said, "Boy, you might not understand, but a long, long time ago,
Grandma's daddy didn't like me none, but I love your Grandma so.
We had this crazy plan to meet and run away together
Get married in the first town we came to and live forever
But nailed to the tree where we were supposed to meet instead
I found this letter, and this is what it said :
"If you get there before I do
Don't give up on me
I'll meet you when my chores are through
I don't know how long I'll be
But I'm not gonna let you down
Darling wait and see
And between now and then
Til I see you again
I'll be loving you
Love, Me."

I read those words just hours before my Grandma passed away
In the doorway of the church where me and Grandpa stopped to pray
I know I've never seen him cry in all my fifteen years
But as he said these words to her, his eyes fill up with tears
"If you get there before I do
Don't give up on me
I'll meet you when my chores are through
I don't know how long I'll be
But I'm not gonna let you down
Darling wait and see
And between now and then
Til I see you again
I'll be loving you
Love, Me."

Thursday, November 16, 2006

there is so much vigour to claim the day as yours and make the present your own, yet there is something in the beauty of waiting that we often let slip away (:

went library t kill time again today
i managed t read two books (:
in the pond by Ha Jin and a bibliography of Elizabeth choy
and i finally got my own library card!
hahaha yay! im on my way t being geek
hahah i guess my progress is not bad so far
met justin at bishan sat same bus as him
hahahah so ciao :D
hai okay i have no mood for writing
feeling rather down now
if only i could get a cage or sth
to lock all those unhappy and unpleasant things in it
so nothing spills out or gets out of that cage
these things always get in my way and i cant seem to chase them away
ill be so much happier, tell them to go away ):

i couldn help it i cried on the bus today
tear glands are acting up again
damn it
i must have looked damn absurd
i held the shell real tight between my fingers
its presence comforted me
then i stopped crying and stared at e world outside
things looked different today

i tell myself that it wasnt right from the start
it was a love doomed to end
and it consoles me
somehow
memories i ised to relish
only seem to bring tears t my eyes

;; right from the beginning